Friday, April 01, 2005

hmm....todae veri sad in da morning...was crying on my way to sch....haiz....coz of wat congkai told mi tis morning...was veri sad...he told mi tat he neva slp ytd nite...then he call mi at 5.30am... was shocked when he call my hp....i was slpin then my bed vibrate....was kind of sad bout wat he told mi......i hope tat not true....coz i oso dun wanna it to be true....it realli hurts mi alot...i was crying till i reach sch....was realli late for sch....but mr singh realli veri good...he lets us in....so we neva late for sch liao.....but i realli too sad to do anything in da morning.....after e morning prayer....goin up to e hall for assembly....band n choir performin for us as they hav to tak part in e syf.....lyk band de second song....was veri sad....n tat when i feel lyk crying again....but i hold up my tears....but tat song realli veri sad n nice....then go bac class le....haiz....dun feel lyk goin class at all....coz all my mind was thinkin bout wat he sae to mi....was realli sad n hurt todae....haiz....went to class...keep wanting to work myself veri hard...so tat i will not think of wat he sae......i tot of doin lots of work to make myself *ma mu.....*so tat i dun hav tim to think bout anything.......was veri veri veri sad todae......study for veri long....but i was still thinkin bout tat....haiz...i juz cant get things out of my head.....well....i noe tat he keep msg carolyn but i dun even noe wat they tokin bout....but haiz...although carolyn lie to mi tat is not him.....by her action...i can already tell.....tis is another thing tat make mi veri veri sad.......y....haiz.....after sch....i tot of not gonna call him bac le....coz when i call him so mani tim in da morning....he hang e phone.... i realli scare.....when i call him after sch.....i still thinkin bout wat happen in de morning....n oso wat he tell mi agian on e phone....he ask mi to tak things slowly....but i realli cant.....congkai.....if u read tis....u will noe wat i mean....actually todae after sch...hav training....but i pon it again....i realli hav no mood to go for tat....i was realli sad to go there....if i gone there.....i scare i might hurt someone......i realli need tim to clear all e things in my mind.....it realli too sad for mi to do anything...sori....he told mi to concerate on my studies....but i realli cant....


i realli sad todae congkai......veri hurts.......u promise mi u wun hurt mi n lie to mi....but u neva keep ur promise....haiz.... :'(....todae is april fool......n i hope wat u told mi is not true.....